Dear Blog,
For the past few days I've been home for Spring Break. For the most part, it's been nice. I've been sleeping until noon, playing some video games uninterrupted, watching some favorite TV shows, talking to my parents and sister, and just not worrying about anything. Yes, I have papers to write, research to conduct, books to read. But for this week, I feel like I need to keep to myself for a bit.
This being said, I plan to visit Bethany tomorrow. Although I desire to be on my own during the break, I do want to see her and her family, too. This is a good chance to get to know her more. She and I have lots of fun, so I can't really object to that during a time allotted for relaxation. She wants to visit the aquarium and I am more than happy to take her there. Back at her house, her family wants me to watch Inception (since I have yet to see it). I'll be sleeping her brother's room, so I have a small present for him.
I bought Pokemon White and plan to play it when I get back to campus. I hope that will be a nice way for me to relax in between homework, work, people, and anything else that pops up. I have a few other games that I want to play, mainly on the Xbox 360, but I imagine they require a tad more focus than Pokemon will. Life seems simpler with the mention of Pokemon. Great games, great TV show, cute toys, all fantastic memories. If I could, I'd play each game again. And capturing a Pokemon, fighting battles, and traveling the landscape makes hearkens back to when I was young and completely enveloped into the Pokemon world. Makes me feel somewhat peaceful to play Pokemon (well, as peaceful as pitting two mutant creatures into a battle to the death makes a person).
My vlog idea has been put on hold, by the way. I hope to create a format to cater toward Woods House needs. A sort of newsletter in video form. Upcoming events, Student Litre interviews, that sort of thing. I need to learn my voice, set up a studio, make a few practice videos, learn length, content, etc. I have a lot of work to do on that front. Let's hope I can make some magic happen, eh?
I wish I knew what else I could talk about. Hopefully I can get back to a steady blog schedule after the break. Hmm, I feel like "after the break" will be an interesting time for me this year. Focus on academics, work, friendships, relationship(?), fraternity, Pokemon, blog and vlog, and perchance the opportunity to reduce soda consumption. A lot to do all at once. But I have to start sometime, why not after the break? And I have have to do all of that, why not all at once? It makes life interesting.
Points of interest:
vlogbrothers on YouTube is something worth watching every week.
RayWilliamJohnson and his show =3 is quite good, too.
charlieissocoollike makes fantastic videos from time to time (and mentions Doctor Who).
Castle, the ABC show is brilliant. Go forth and watch!
Until next time!
-Daniel Golden
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Focus
Dear Blog,
You'll be interested to know that my attempts at vlogging have been less than fruitful. I've tried, recorded plenty of time of myself talking, but I am not able to focus on the task of creating a single idea and running with it, from filming to editing.
Now that I think about it, I lack focus in most of everything that I do. I rarely clean my room without randomly doing other tasks. I even jet away from writing this entry to search for other items as they come to mind. I wish I could say that I have ADD, but alas, I'm sure I don't.
I tried writing, but I'm so distracted by my mind. "I need to clean my sick" to "retape my floor decorations" to "homework" to whatever else. My brain fires off so many different ideas and I can't seem to stick to one for too long. I recall previous thoughts and conversations at seemingly random points in my day and just go with it.
For instance, between this paragraph and the previous one, I've read another article talking about HelpNathanBuyFirefly.com, Facebook chatted with a friend, washed my face, browsed the App Store on my iPhone, and checked a few things out on my laptop. I need to clean up my room and see about rearranging my furniture.
Blah. It's hard to concentrate (as of late, for sure). I'm not motivated to complete anything. It's even hard to just play video games. And the time steadily moves forward and no progress is made on any front. Or almost worse, a bit of progress is made of multiple fronts. I need to be researching images for my next floor theme (Pokemon?), reading Mark Twain and science fiction and fantasy stories, planning more jam sessions for Woods 5 (plus other RA stuffs), PSP, and other stuff. Heck, I'm losing focus on a blog all about me. What chance does anything else have?
I have the time, just not the drive. I blame the rainy weather today.
Until next time!
-Daniel Golden
You'll be interested to know that my attempts at vlogging have been less than fruitful. I've tried, recorded plenty of time of myself talking, but I am not able to focus on the task of creating a single idea and running with it, from filming to editing.
Now that I think about it, I lack focus in most of everything that I do. I rarely clean my room without randomly doing other tasks. I even jet away from writing this entry to search for other items as they come to mind. I wish I could say that I have ADD, but alas, I'm sure I don't.
I tried writing, but I'm so distracted by my mind. "I need to clean my sick" to "retape my floor decorations" to "homework" to whatever else. My brain fires off so many different ideas and I can't seem to stick to one for too long. I recall previous thoughts and conversations at seemingly random points in my day and just go with it.
For instance, between this paragraph and the previous one, I've read another article talking about HelpNathanBuyFirefly.com, Facebook chatted with a friend, washed my face, browsed the App Store on my iPhone, and checked a few things out on my laptop. I need to clean up my room and see about rearranging my furniture.
Blah. It's hard to concentrate (as of late, for sure). I'm not motivated to complete anything. It's even hard to just play video games. And the time steadily moves forward and no progress is made on any front. Or almost worse, a bit of progress is made of multiple fronts. I need to be researching images for my next floor theme (Pokemon?), reading Mark Twain and science fiction and fantasy stories, planning more jam sessions for Woods 5 (plus other RA stuffs), PSP, and other stuff. Heck, I'm losing focus on a blog all about me. What chance does anything else have?
I have the time, just not the drive. I blame the rainy weather today.
Until next time!
-Daniel Golden
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Hobby
Dear Blog,
Despite what you may think, Blog, I do not have a hobby. It seems that way. I haven't written anything substantial in quite a while, and you think I may have abandoned you to the far reaches of my mind. But it's not the case. My life has been a bit of a whirlwind of events. But I felt that it wasn't in your best interests to tell you, Blog. You're but a child. A recent creation of mine. And fragile. So here's but a brief summary of events and a new topic of discussion.
Victoria and I broke up right before finals week. Blog, the days and weeks after the break up were hard. I questioned myself on a variety of levels. But ultimately, I needed that break from her. It was not a healthy relationship. I'm not going to bash her (but I'm quite justified if I did wanted to). I still need a little more time to heal. She's got another guy now, and if she's truly happy, I'm glad for her.
Dad had a heart attack over the Christmas break, a couple of days before Christmas Day. He's fine now, don't worry. But the emotional aftermath was a bit much. The thought of losing my hero was more than I could bear, so I essentially refused to acknowledge that possibility was even an option. He's eating healthier now, and slowly changes some of his bad habits. He seems so much healthy now. Next up for him is his hip surgery. After that, he'll be better than ever with his stronger heart and awesome joint mobility.
Being a Resident Assistant is a tad stressful, as it always is. Aleigha, the Hall Director of Woods House, got an amazing job elsewhere and left MSU to pursue that opportunity. This semester started off without her here and Ryan from Scholar's House filling her her role as Hall Director. Ryan is pretty awesome, but after creating a good bond with Aleigha, it's been a bit jarring to incorporate a new leader. Plus my resident situation was interesting, with people coming and going for the first few weeks of the semester.
In the realm of romance, I haven't had the greatest luck either. Had to deny a friend a possible relationship with me, went on one date with a girl and she didn't feel the same as I did about her, and became quite close to another girl, which yielded interesting information throughout our discussions and resulted in another lost chance at something romantically lasting. The first girl and I are still friends, the second girl and I seems to get along just fine, and the third girl and I are bound to be best friends, which makes me excited.
On the note of friendship, these past couple of months have lead to some interesting news. Sarah and I have started chatting again. This makes me incredibly happy. I hope that she and I are able to resume our awesome friendship after the extended pause we had.
I've gotten closer to many members of Woods House staff, as well. Long talks, new insight, and just spending time together (in the face of the merging of Woods and Scholar's House) have really made us strong as a unit. I would even go as far to say that we might be the closest staff of all MSU residence halls.
In particular to staff friendships, Ashleigh and I have strengthened our friendship to limits I would have never thought possible. This makes me ecstatic, too. She's become very protective of me and I of her. I truly hope she and I are able to work on campus over the summer as it would make for an excellent time.
It almost goes without saying that my friendship with Nikki has gotten stronger, too. We had a bit of a rocky patch, but getting through that, she and I have a closer connection than before. I feel very safe when it comes to Nikki. She's not the average girl and that's a definite bonus for her.
Great friends are like diamonds. I seem to have found a diamond mine here at MSU.
The night goes on, so I will wrap up this blog with a bit of news. I feel like I have too much free time on my hands now that I am single. With this free time, I don't know what to do. So I will try to take up a hobby. This hobby, inspired by Nikki, is to vlog. Now I know, Blog, that you might be jealous. But these vlogs probably won't be as personal as I am to you. I don't know what to do, how to go about starting, or even if I'm good at it. But everyone has to start from the beginning at some time, no? Wish me luck, though, Blog. I need a bit of encouragement.
Until next time,
Daniel Golden
Despite what you may think, Blog, I do not have a hobby. It seems that way. I haven't written anything substantial in quite a while, and you think I may have abandoned you to the far reaches of my mind. But it's not the case. My life has been a bit of a whirlwind of events. But I felt that it wasn't in your best interests to tell you, Blog. You're but a child. A recent creation of mine. And fragile. So here's but a brief summary of events and a new topic of discussion.
Victoria and I broke up right before finals week. Blog, the days and weeks after the break up were hard. I questioned myself on a variety of levels. But ultimately, I needed that break from her. It was not a healthy relationship. I'm not going to bash her (but I'm quite justified if I did wanted to). I still need a little more time to heal. She's got another guy now, and if she's truly happy, I'm glad for her.
Dad had a heart attack over the Christmas break, a couple of days before Christmas Day. He's fine now, don't worry. But the emotional aftermath was a bit much. The thought of losing my hero was more than I could bear, so I essentially refused to acknowledge that possibility was even an option. He's eating healthier now, and slowly changes some of his bad habits. He seems so much healthy now. Next up for him is his hip surgery. After that, he'll be better than ever with his stronger heart and awesome joint mobility.
Being a Resident Assistant is a tad stressful, as it always is. Aleigha, the Hall Director of Woods House, got an amazing job elsewhere and left MSU to pursue that opportunity. This semester started off without her here and Ryan from Scholar's House filling her her role as Hall Director. Ryan is pretty awesome, but after creating a good bond with Aleigha, it's been a bit jarring to incorporate a new leader. Plus my resident situation was interesting, with people coming and going for the first few weeks of the semester.
In the realm of romance, I haven't had the greatest luck either. Had to deny a friend a possible relationship with me, went on one date with a girl and she didn't feel the same as I did about her, and became quite close to another girl, which yielded interesting information throughout our discussions and resulted in another lost chance at something romantically lasting. The first girl and I are still friends, the second girl and I seems to get along just fine, and the third girl and I are bound to be best friends, which makes me excited.
On the note of friendship, these past couple of months have lead to some interesting news. Sarah and I have started chatting again. This makes me incredibly happy. I hope that she and I are able to resume our awesome friendship after the extended pause we had.
I've gotten closer to many members of Woods House staff, as well. Long talks, new insight, and just spending time together (in the face of the merging of Woods and Scholar's House) have really made us strong as a unit. I would even go as far to say that we might be the closest staff of all MSU residence halls.
In particular to staff friendships, Ashleigh and I have strengthened our friendship to limits I would have never thought possible. This makes me ecstatic, too. She's become very protective of me and I of her. I truly hope she and I are able to work on campus over the summer as it would make for an excellent time.
It almost goes without saying that my friendship with Nikki has gotten stronger, too. We had a bit of a rocky patch, but getting through that, she and I have a closer connection than before. I feel very safe when it comes to Nikki. She's not the average girl and that's a definite bonus for her.
Great friends are like diamonds. I seem to have found a diamond mine here at MSU.
The night goes on, so I will wrap up this blog with a bit of news. I feel like I have too much free time on my hands now that I am single. With this free time, I don't know what to do. So I will try to take up a hobby. This hobby, inspired by Nikki, is to vlog. Now I know, Blog, that you might be jealous. But these vlogs probably won't be as personal as I am to you. I don't know what to do, how to go about starting, or even if I'm good at it. But everyone has to start from the beginning at some time, no? Wish me luck, though, Blog. I need a bit of encouragement.
Until next time,
Daniel Golden
Monday, January 24, 2011
30 Days, 30 Letters: Part 4
Dear Blog,
This is Part 4 of the "30 Days, 30 Letters" endeavor.
Day 24 — The Person That Gave You Your Favorite Memory
Dear George Lucas,
Thank you for creating Star Wars. Seeing Star Wars for the first time was a magical feeling. The whole world you created spoke to me. It lit a path to the kind of person I am today. If I had never seen Star Wars, I would be a radically different person typing these blogs. You helped me have some of the best memories of my life. Sure, reunions with friends are always lovely, seeing fantastic locales throughout my life is wonderful, the plethora of toys and games brings a smile to my face, and so many little things that I appreciate are grand. But seeing Star Wars is a landmark in my life.
Thank you for imagining greater and pursuing your dreams.
-Daniel
Day 25 — The Person You Know That is Going Through the Worst of Times
Dear World,
War. Disease. Famine. Fear.
I'm just a man. A boy. One person. I can do my best to help, but I won't cure your ailments. I hear you crying. But I think my lullaby is too soft. I will keep singing. One voice to soothe a part of you. But I can't solve everything. I'm sorry.
I'm so so sorry.
-Daniel
Day 26 — The Last Person You Made a Pinky Promise To
Dear Nikki,
You are probably the last person I made a pinky promise to. I don't know what I promised to do, but it doesn't matter all that much. Just remember that you're my best friend. I'm not entirely sure how. But I won't argue it.
I'm just glad I'm your best friend, too.
-Daniel
Day 27 — The Friendliest Person You Knew for Only One Day
Dear You,
I don't know what to say, other than thank you. My heart is happier because of you.
And it's a wonderful secret.
-Daniel
Day 28 — Someone That Changed Your Life
Dear Mr. Beattie,
I am a geek. I will always be a geek. But thanks to you, I am a geek that can showcase my talents to an audience. I don't know how you did it, but you got me to break from the self-imposed introverted shell I was in and expand onto the stage and perform the greatest role of all: myself. Thank you so much for giving me the medium to learn about myself. I wouldn't be an RA if not for you. I wouldn't have chosen this college if it weren't for you. I weren't have made the friends I did if it weren't for you. You made my life radically different by helping me tap into the unlimited imagination I held within myself. You changed my life for the better.
Mr. Mike Beattie, may you live long and prosper.
-Daniel
Day 29 — The Person That You Want Tell Everything To, But Too Afraid To
Dear Love,
One day I will meet you. One day I will marry you. One day I will tell you nearly everything I can about everything in my life. But love, it will not be everything. I will keep something from you. I will be too afraid to tell you. It's nothing against you. I will love you. But this is too much for you to bear. It's not a long story, it's a hidden past. It's just a thought. And if I told you, it probably wouldn't affect us. But it will stay a secret.
I am sorry, but this is how I am.
-Daniel
Day 30 — Your Reflection in the Mirror
Dear Daniel,
You are very loved. People do love you. You are cared about and cared for. You will never be alone. You are such a wonderful person. You are very kind, quite smart, and so helpful. You reach out your hand as often as you can. You are genuine. You are funny. You are creative. You are fantastic. You are a geek. You are the reason some people smile. Your eyes are full of life. You have a life ahead of you. You are hardworking, loyal, and so so patient. You don't need to change, you just need to grow. Experience is valuable and yours to own. You are a great person, Daniel.
Just... be careful.
-Daniel
This is Part 4 of the "30 Days, 30 Letters" endeavor.
Day 24 — The Person That Gave You Your Favorite Memory
Dear George Lucas,
Thank you for creating Star Wars. Seeing Star Wars for the first time was a magical feeling. The whole world you created spoke to me. It lit a path to the kind of person I am today. If I had never seen Star Wars, I would be a radically different person typing these blogs. You helped me have some of the best memories of my life. Sure, reunions with friends are always lovely, seeing fantastic locales throughout my life is wonderful, the plethora of toys and games brings a smile to my face, and so many little things that I appreciate are grand. But seeing Star Wars is a landmark in my life.
Thank you for imagining greater and pursuing your dreams.
-Daniel
Day 25 — The Person You Know That is Going Through the Worst of Times
Dear World,
War. Disease. Famine. Fear.
I'm just a man. A boy. One person. I can do my best to help, but I won't cure your ailments. I hear you crying. But I think my lullaby is too soft. I will keep singing. One voice to soothe a part of you. But I can't solve everything. I'm sorry.
I'm so so sorry.
-Daniel
Day 26 — The Last Person You Made a Pinky Promise To
Dear Nikki,
You are probably the last person I made a pinky promise to. I don't know what I promised to do, but it doesn't matter all that much. Just remember that you're my best friend. I'm not entirely sure how. But I won't argue it.
I'm just glad I'm your best friend, too.
-Daniel
Day 27 — The Friendliest Person You Knew for Only One Day
Dear You,
I don't know what to say, other than thank you. My heart is happier because of you.
And it's a wonderful secret.
-Daniel
Day 28 — Someone That Changed Your Life
Dear Mr. Beattie,
I am a geek. I will always be a geek. But thanks to you, I am a geek that can showcase my talents to an audience. I don't know how you did it, but you got me to break from the self-imposed introverted shell I was in and expand onto the stage and perform the greatest role of all: myself. Thank you so much for giving me the medium to learn about myself. I wouldn't be an RA if not for you. I wouldn't have chosen this college if it weren't for you. I weren't have made the friends I did if it weren't for you. You made my life radically different by helping me tap into the unlimited imagination I held within myself. You changed my life for the better.
Mr. Mike Beattie, may you live long and prosper.
-Daniel
Day 29 — The Person That You Want Tell Everything To, But Too Afraid To
Dear Love,
One day I will meet you. One day I will marry you. One day I will tell you nearly everything I can about everything in my life. But love, it will not be everything. I will keep something from you. I will be too afraid to tell you. It's nothing against you. I will love you. But this is too much for you to bear. It's not a long story, it's a hidden past. It's just a thought. And if I told you, it probably wouldn't affect us. But it will stay a secret.
I am sorry, but this is how I am.
-Daniel
Day 30 — Your Reflection in the Mirror
Dear Daniel,
You are very loved. People do love you. You are cared about and cared for. You will never be alone. You are such a wonderful person. You are very kind, quite smart, and so helpful. You reach out your hand as often as you can. You are genuine. You are funny. You are creative. You are fantastic. You are a geek. You are the reason some people smile. Your eyes are full of life. You have a life ahead of you. You are hardworking, loyal, and so so patient. You don't need to change, you just need to grow. Experience is valuable and yours to own. You are a great person, Daniel.
Just... be careful.
-Daniel
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
30 Days, 30 Letters: Part 3
Dear Blog,
This is Part 3 of the "30 Days, 30 Letters" endeavor.
Day 15 — The Person you Miss the Most
Dear Crystal,
I miss you. Crystal Buhler, you're a gem. You're a wonderful person. You were there for me when I was just beginning to realize who I would grow up to be. You've seen me at horrible spots in my life, and stood next to me in my early triumphs. We were close; inseparable, at times. I know I wasn't the greatest friend to you, and I apologize for those rough spots. I was young and I didn't know the full extent of my words or actions, which shouldn't be an excuse as much as it is an unfortunate fact of my life. Thanks to the Internet, we've been able to exchange holiday greetings and salutations occasionally. You're living a great life, from what I gather through Facebook, and you've grown so beautiful over the years. I think of you from time to time and I hope fond memories of our youth pop into your consciousness every now and again. I'm out of the loop when it comes to your life, but believe me, I will listen if you need me. I might not know all the characters in your life story now, but it's the least I can do for you.
Thank you, Crystal.
-Daniel
Day 16 — Someone That’s Not in Your State/Country
Dear Morgan,
Morgan Witt, there are few words that I can use to describe my feelings for you. I was enamored with you. I would have followed you around the world. Then we became best friends, and I knew that even if we were never to date, that we’d have each other throughout the ages. And your friendship is one that I miss. MySpace, that wonderful social network site, helped build the friendship, and Facebook has maintained it. Much has happened since junior year of high school, and now that I’m in my junior year of college, I look back on memories of us fondly. You're off in a different state, although technically, I moved away, but I imagine that if we were to cross paths at random somewhere in the world, our friendship would easily return to that awesome bond we had in high school.
Stay indescribable.
-Daniel
Day 17 — Someone from Your Childhood
Dear Sierra?
I think that was/is your name. We were "together" in first grade. I think you had blond, curly hair. Probably a Southern accent, too. I would call you my first girlfriend if I remembered more of you. I can recall how you read slightly faster than I did, how I called you and your father hung up on me. And then you put me on hold when I called a second time and I had no idea what being put on hold meant and it lasted for a really long time. I think you gave me massages at recess, too. My mind tells me it happened, but my 21 year old self doubts my memories. I would like to talk to you today. If I knew your full name, I would try and find you on Facebook, but first graders don't care about last names.
I hope you smile when you think of me, if I'm somewhere in your mind.
-Daniel
Day 18 — The Person That You Wish You Could Be
Dear Potential Daniel,
I wish I could be so many people. Tonight, I wish I could be the Doctor from Doctor Who. Specifically the Tenth Doctor. I would love to be Obi-Wan Kenobi. Calm, defending the peace, diplomatic, "The Great Negotiator", but powerful and wise. Or House. Horribly intelligent, sarcastic, assertive, acknowledges social cues yet doesn't care, but he's a medical doctor, saving lives and doing something he loves. But as I said, tonight I wish I could be the Tenth Doctor. He's wonderfully intelligent, very well-traveled (throughout space and time), energetic, witty, and spontaneous. He's also very old, very empathetic, tries to help everyone, and punishes those who need it. He's suffered great loss, but he moves forward. I wish I could be him. True, the great fun to be had has the balance of a tragic past, but being him means I could go through it all. That's a quality I wish I had. But I'd move forward, grabbing a companion to running off to New Earth or Ancient Greece or Barcelona (a planet where dogs have no noses).
Allons-y!
-Daniel
Day 19 — Someone That Pesters Your Mind (Good or Bad)
Dear Girls,
Please stop confusing me.
Thank you.
-Daniel
Day 20 — The One That Broke Your Heart the Hardest
Dear Patricia,
You're forgiven. No resentment, no anger. True, it sounds bad that I say you broke my heart the hardest, but of my choices, it's not hard to see from my point of view.
And that's all I have to say about that.
-Daniel
Day 21 — Someone You Judged by their First Impression
Dear Nikki,
When I first saw you, heard you speak, learned a bit about you, I reasoned that I'd work with you well, but we wouldn't be close friends. It wasn't anything against you. I just thought that we wouldn't have anything in common. I was very, very wrong. In a way, it's funny.
Wouldn't you say, best friend?
-Daniel
Day 22 — Someone You Want to Give a Second Chance To
Dear Any Girl Who Has Ever Asked Me Out,
I should have at least gone on one date with you. Sometimes, I was very validated in my reason to say no to you, but a yes would have made your day. I've been said no to by a few girls that I worked up the courage to ask. You must have gone through similar thought processes, so I should have given you at least one date, one movie. You might have surprised me and I was wrong to deny your chance to astound me.
I should keep this thought in mind for the future.
-Daniel
Day 23 — The Last Person You Kissed
Dear Victoria,
Your blog listed 2010 as one of your most hated years.
That hurts, because I count it as my best yet.
-Daniel
This is Part 3 of the "30 Days, 30 Letters" endeavor.
Day 15 — The Person you Miss the Most
Dear Crystal,
I miss you. Crystal Buhler, you're a gem. You're a wonderful person. You were there for me when I was just beginning to realize who I would grow up to be. You've seen me at horrible spots in my life, and stood next to me in my early triumphs. We were close; inseparable, at times. I know I wasn't the greatest friend to you, and I apologize for those rough spots. I was young and I didn't know the full extent of my words or actions, which shouldn't be an excuse as much as it is an unfortunate fact of my life. Thanks to the Internet, we've been able to exchange holiday greetings and salutations occasionally. You're living a great life, from what I gather through Facebook, and you've grown so beautiful over the years. I think of you from time to time and I hope fond memories of our youth pop into your consciousness every now and again. I'm out of the loop when it comes to your life, but believe me, I will listen if you need me. I might not know all the characters in your life story now, but it's the least I can do for you.
Thank you, Crystal.
-Daniel
Day 16 — Someone That’s Not in Your State/Country
Dear Morgan,
Morgan Witt, there are few words that I can use to describe my feelings for you. I was enamored with you. I would have followed you around the world. Then we became best friends, and I knew that even if we were never to date, that we’d have each other throughout the ages. And your friendship is one that I miss. MySpace, that wonderful social network site, helped build the friendship, and Facebook has maintained it. Much has happened since junior year of high school, and now that I’m in my junior year of college, I look back on memories of us fondly. You're off in a different state, although technically, I moved away, but I imagine that if we were to cross paths at random somewhere in the world, our friendship would easily return to that awesome bond we had in high school.
Stay indescribable.
-Daniel
Day 17 — Someone from Your Childhood
Dear Sierra?
I think that was/is your name. We were "together" in first grade. I think you had blond, curly hair. Probably a Southern accent, too. I would call you my first girlfriend if I remembered more of you. I can recall how you read slightly faster than I did, how I called you and your father hung up on me. And then you put me on hold when I called a second time and I had no idea what being put on hold meant and it lasted for a really long time. I think you gave me massages at recess, too. My mind tells me it happened, but my 21 year old self doubts my memories. I would like to talk to you today. If I knew your full name, I would try and find you on Facebook, but first graders don't care about last names.
I hope you smile when you think of me, if I'm somewhere in your mind.
-Daniel
Day 18 — The Person That You Wish You Could Be
Dear Potential Daniel,
I wish I could be so many people. Tonight, I wish I could be the Doctor from Doctor Who. Specifically the Tenth Doctor. I would love to be Obi-Wan Kenobi. Calm, defending the peace, diplomatic, "The Great Negotiator", but powerful and wise. Or House. Horribly intelligent, sarcastic, assertive, acknowledges social cues yet doesn't care, but he's a medical doctor, saving lives and doing something he loves. But as I said, tonight I wish I could be the Tenth Doctor. He's wonderfully intelligent, very well-traveled (throughout space and time), energetic, witty, and spontaneous. He's also very old, very empathetic, tries to help everyone, and punishes those who need it. He's suffered great loss, but he moves forward. I wish I could be him. True, the great fun to be had has the balance of a tragic past, but being him means I could go through it all. That's a quality I wish I had. But I'd move forward, grabbing a companion to running off to New Earth or Ancient Greece or Barcelona (a planet where dogs have no noses).
Allons-y!
-Daniel
Day 19 — Someone That Pesters Your Mind (Good or Bad)
Dear Girls,
Please stop confusing me.
Thank you.
-Daniel
Day 20 — The One That Broke Your Heart the Hardest
Dear Patricia,
You're forgiven. No resentment, no anger. True, it sounds bad that I say you broke my heart the hardest, but of my choices, it's not hard to see from my point of view.
And that's all I have to say about that.
-Daniel
Day 21 — Someone You Judged by their First Impression
Dear Nikki,
When I first saw you, heard you speak, learned a bit about you, I reasoned that I'd work with you well, but we wouldn't be close friends. It wasn't anything against you. I just thought that we wouldn't have anything in common. I was very, very wrong. In a way, it's funny.
Wouldn't you say, best friend?
-Daniel
Day 22 — Someone You Want to Give a Second Chance To
Dear Any Girl Who Has Ever Asked Me Out,
I should have at least gone on one date with you. Sometimes, I was very validated in my reason to say no to you, but a yes would have made your day. I've been said no to by a few girls that I worked up the courage to ask. You must have gone through similar thought processes, so I should have given you at least one date, one movie. You might have surprised me and I was wrong to deny your chance to astound me.
I should keep this thought in mind for the future.
-Daniel
Day 23 — The Last Person You Kissed
Dear Victoria,
Your blog listed 2010 as one of your most hated years.
That hurts, because I count it as my best yet.
-Daniel
Thursday, December 16, 2010
30 Days, 30 Letters: Part 2
Dear Blog,
This is Part 2 of the "30 Days, 30 Letters" endeavor.
Day 7 — Your Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Love/Crush
Dear Ex-Girlfriends/Loves,
To Aeriel, I've apologized to you and you've accepted. Yes, I was young and immature. And you were my first girlfriend, so what did I know about relationships? Thanks for caring, for listening, for opening the door to a new way of looking at the world. I look back at memories of us fondly, and hope life treats you fairly.
You've turned some of the joy and pain I caused into wonderful words. Your book is a treasure of mine now, and I am so proud of what you've done.
To Patricia, I'm sorry things didn't work out. I'm sorry things didn't start as soon as they should have, too. Our relationship was unorthodox at times, but it was pretty great. We the relationship ended, I was crushed. But I got through, found myself, became a better version of me. You're so amazing, and I hope you'll be able to find someone once you start college.
And when you rule the world, remember me. I wouldn't need much, just a city or two to rule.
To Victoria, this letter to you is far too soon. After some time, I should write an additional blog; a sort of amendment to this endeavor.
-Daniel
Day 8 — Your Favorite Internet Friend
Dear Internet,
You are a great friend. You've connected me to so, so many people. On Facebook and MySpace, I've been able to chat long after school has ended. And the random sites that I visit allow me to meet new people, if only for a few days. You provide information when I need it fast, and entertainment when I desire it. So much to read, watch, and enjoy, thanks to you, Internet. Countless hours I have spent online, reading reviews, watching videos, browsing that safest of businesses and places of Main Street World Wide Web and dark alleys between the cracks in law and order.
I hope you grow, but hardly change.
-Daniel
Day 9 — Someone You Wish You Could Meet
Dear Taylor Swift,
Of all the world leaders, business people, celebrities, and heroes in my life, today, I wish I could meet you. I don't know if its because of the music you make, the way you talk, or the look in your eye, but I feel like we could be fast friends. You just seem like a wonderful person, and spending time with you would be like heaven. Would you date me? I don't know, but friendship would be fabulous, nevertheless. So to Taylor Swift, I wish I could meet you. Perhaps one day soon, our paths will cross and a bond created.
A dream, to be sure. And a marvelous dream it is.
-Daniel
Day 10 — Someone You Don’t Talk to as Much as You’d Like to
Dear Friends,
There are many friends that I have made, and subsequently do not talk to as much as I'd like to, because of moving. Sure, Facebook is a wonderful tool, and my phone is magical in some respects, but face-to-face communication is key to a friendship, and I've lost that with many of you. One day, when I'm rich and famous, I'll be able to visit and rekindle our friendships. But until then, maybe we should Skype?
-Daniel
Day 11 — A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk To
Dear Nonna,
I couldn't talk to you much when you were alive, because you didn't speak English and my Italian was far from fluent. But since you're deceased, I imagine the afterlife is much like a TARDIS, in that you'd have the ability to speak and understand virtually all languages. I would like to talk about everything with you. Love, life, stories of wisdom, or whatever else you'd want to talk about. Perhaps I'll meet up with you one day, and we can chat then.
Although I'd imagine you'd just want me to eat a lot.
-Daniel
Day 12 — The Person You Hate Most/Caused You a Lot of Pain
Dear Nobody,
I don't hate anyone. I don't think I really can.
As for pain, its not a negative emotion in my experiences. Its a part of being human. It's a fact of life. So sure, I've been hurt, in pain, and it wasn't pleasant. But this day, this letter, is meant for a rant, and I don't have a rant to give.
-Daniel
Day 13 — Someone You Wish Could Forgive You
Dear Victoria,
I'm not aware of anyone who could forgive me, but you, in the coming weeks, might come to dislike me and/or my actions, if you haven't started to already. So for this day, this letter, I ask you to forgive me. I will be more than willing to talk to you. I will explain myself a dozen times to help you understand me, if you want. And I want to be your friend, too.
Forgive me.
-Daniel
Day 14 — Someone You’ve Drifted Away From
Dear Friends,
The same friends I wish I could talk to more are the same people that I've drifted from. It's not the fault of anyone. It's distance and time. Ours lives are different, and so too are our chances to chat. Hopefully, you might read this blog and we can come closer. Perhaps I'll be able to chat for a few hours next year to you, to catch up and learn from you all again.
Skype is awesome for that purpose.
-Daniel
This is Part 2 of the "30 Days, 30 Letters" endeavor.
Day 7 — Your Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Love/Crush
Dear Ex-Girlfriends/Loves,
To Aeriel, I've apologized to you and you've accepted. Yes, I was young and immature. And you were my first girlfriend, so what did I know about relationships? Thanks for caring, for listening, for opening the door to a new way of looking at the world. I look back at memories of us fondly, and hope life treats you fairly.
You've turned some of the joy and pain I caused into wonderful words. Your book is a treasure of mine now, and I am so proud of what you've done.
To Patricia, I'm sorry things didn't work out. I'm sorry things didn't start as soon as they should have, too. Our relationship was unorthodox at times, but it was pretty great. We the relationship ended, I was crushed. But I got through, found myself, became a better version of me. You're so amazing, and I hope you'll be able to find someone once you start college.
And when you rule the world, remember me. I wouldn't need much, just a city or two to rule.
To Victoria, this letter to you is far too soon. After some time, I should write an additional blog; a sort of amendment to this endeavor.
-Daniel
Day 8 — Your Favorite Internet Friend
Dear Internet,
You are a great friend. You've connected me to so, so many people. On Facebook and MySpace, I've been able to chat long after school has ended. And the random sites that I visit allow me to meet new people, if only for a few days. You provide information when I need it fast, and entertainment when I desire it. So much to read, watch, and enjoy, thanks to you, Internet. Countless hours I have spent online, reading reviews, watching videos, browsing that safest of businesses and places of Main Street World Wide Web and dark alleys between the cracks in law and order.
I hope you grow, but hardly change.
-Daniel
Day 9 — Someone You Wish You Could Meet
Dear Taylor Swift,
Of all the world leaders, business people, celebrities, and heroes in my life, today, I wish I could meet you. I don't know if its because of the music you make, the way you talk, or the look in your eye, but I feel like we could be fast friends. You just seem like a wonderful person, and spending time with you would be like heaven. Would you date me? I don't know, but friendship would be fabulous, nevertheless. So to Taylor Swift, I wish I could meet you. Perhaps one day soon, our paths will cross and a bond created.
A dream, to be sure. And a marvelous dream it is.
-Daniel
Day 10 — Someone You Don’t Talk to as Much as You’d Like to
Dear Friends,
There are many friends that I have made, and subsequently do not talk to as much as I'd like to, because of moving. Sure, Facebook is a wonderful tool, and my phone is magical in some respects, but face-to-face communication is key to a friendship, and I've lost that with many of you. One day, when I'm rich and famous, I'll be able to visit and rekindle our friendships. But until then, maybe we should Skype?
-Daniel
Day 11 — A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk To
Dear Nonna,
I couldn't talk to you much when you were alive, because you didn't speak English and my Italian was far from fluent. But since you're deceased, I imagine the afterlife is much like a TARDIS, in that you'd have the ability to speak and understand virtually all languages. I would like to talk about everything with you. Love, life, stories of wisdom, or whatever else you'd want to talk about. Perhaps I'll meet up with you one day, and we can chat then.
Although I'd imagine you'd just want me to eat a lot.
-Daniel
Day 12 — The Person You Hate Most/Caused You a Lot of Pain
Dear Nobody,
I don't hate anyone. I don't think I really can.
As for pain, its not a negative emotion in my experiences. Its a part of being human. It's a fact of life. So sure, I've been hurt, in pain, and it wasn't pleasant. But this day, this letter, is meant for a rant, and I don't have a rant to give.
-Daniel
Day 13 — Someone You Wish Could Forgive You
Dear Victoria,
I'm not aware of anyone who could forgive me, but you, in the coming weeks, might come to dislike me and/or my actions, if you haven't started to already. So for this day, this letter, I ask you to forgive me. I will be more than willing to talk to you. I will explain myself a dozen times to help you understand me, if you want. And I want to be your friend, too.
Forgive me.
-Daniel
Day 14 — Someone You’ve Drifted Away From
Dear Friends,
The same friends I wish I could talk to more are the same people that I've drifted from. It's not the fault of anyone. It's distance and time. Ours lives are different, and so too are our chances to chat. Hopefully, you might read this blog and we can come closer. Perhaps I'll be able to chat for a few hours next year to you, to catch up and learn from you all again.
Skype is awesome for that purpose.
-Daniel
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
30 Days, 30 Letters
Dear Blog,
Blog, I haven't written to you in a very, very long time. But hopefully, this new project, "30 Days, 30 Letters", will help me write more often. The basic premise is that I will write a letter each day for a month's time to various people. I started writing these letters a month ago, but could never finish the first letter. There were so many people to include, and I remembered more and more as I wrote. So, I plan to try and limit myself as best I can.
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Dear Best Friends,
Oh, the best friend question. "Daniel, who is your best friend?" That's a tricky question, Everyday Citizen. Most people grow up with someone as their best friend, being neighbors, classmates, family friends, etc. But being a military brat, I've moved around a bit. With each move, came new friends. And sometimes those friends moved away while I stayed put. So, in the end, I've had several people I consider best friends, no greater or lesser in standing than the others. Best friends of mine at different times in my life, at different locations. So I'll write a letter to everyone, if I can.
To you, Best Friends, I say thanks. I sound formal and a tad detached, but cut me a break, I'm writing to dozens of people at once.
Best Friends, know that I value you. You've been there, via IM, MySpace, Facebook, phone call, video chat, and in person. You've listened to me, guided me, helped me become who I am. Life without close friends is hardly interesting, and thanks to you, I've had an interesting life.
For some of you, we don't chat very often. Random messages online, the text or phone call. And others, it seems like I bother you everyday. If I could, I'd see all of you each day. Be it for video games, a hug, random movies and shows, or just talking. Life hasn't worked out like that, and I hope you're in my thoughts as often as you're in mine.
I'm here, in cyberspace, if you ever need anything.
-Daniel
Day 2 — Your Crush
I Googled quotes about crushes.
"Sometimes I wish I could scream at you, and show you just what it is that you do to me."
-Daniel
Day 3 — Your Parents
I wrote about my parents in my birthday blog. Here is that clip, with some edits and an addition.
Mom and Dad, you have spoiled me. But let me be quick to say that I'm not complaining. I've always had ample food, games, and random stuff I probably begged for and said "I'll love you forever if you get this [trivial item] right now!" TV, movies, and books were plentiful. You also gave me plenty of love and attention. Reading to me at night, making sure I had the tools I needed to learn, encouraging me to be myself and supporting me when I wanted to be an archeologist one year, then an aerospace engineer the next year. You provided a humorous environment to grow and thrive in, and a life full of travel and culture. You protected me from some of life's unsavory aspects, but granted me access to everything when I was ready. My values and morals, my attitude toward life, and my personality stem from you. I am my own person with my own ideas and opinions, but I follow your example more often than not. I can thank you everyday for the rest of my life and it wouldn't be adequate enough for what they've done for me. Braces, good schools, my own computer, telescope, vehicle, game consoles, TVs, stereos, CDs galore, DVDs, phones, Beanie Babies, McDonald's toys, furniture, decorations, vacations and trips to fantastic locations, and so many other random stuff that I'm not aware of, forgotten, or simply too numerous to list without delaying the point. The thing I can do for you is to live my life. To go into the world and be myself. I'll stumble, fail, but I'll learn and continue to grow.
And grandchildren. I'm sure you eventually want some grandchildren, right?
-Daniel
Day 4 — Your Sibling
Dear Linda,
I have no idea if you read this blog, or are even aware of its existence, but that is beside the point. The point that I aim to make is that you are my sister, and you are awesome.
Yes, I've totally been an older sibling to you. Poked fun, bossed you around, gotten upset and started pointless arguments. But you have to admit, we've had far more good times than bad. TV shows we watched together, our crazy inside jokes, common interests and wonderful differences.
We're older now, and we both know you've got this vast potential ahead of you. You've got this intellect that I'm jealous of at times. And an artistic eye that still eludes me. You've got several successes to your name and you haven't even graduated yet. You've got a plan, a goal, a dream. You're set to go.
But with all this, be aware that I'm still older. It doesn't make me better, but it makes me a tad wiser. So please, listen to me when I try to give you advice (and the same goes for when mom and dad do the same). You know this to be true, but I don't think you actually believe it at times. Don't nod your head and say "I know, I know." That doesn't help you. Listen and try to learn.
It sounds like I'm lecturing, but when it comes to you, I only wish you'd listen at times. College is different. The academics are going to be more difficult, but that's only half of the experience. And I don't want you to fail at college when you could have simply listened to us when it comes to everything else.
Linda, you're an excellent sister. Lighten up a bit when the family pokes fun, listen when people try to help, and most of all, don't be different for the sake of being different; just be yourself.
-Daniel
Day 5 — Your Dreams
Dear Dreams,
You are varied. You are changing. You are a tad crazy at times.
Jedi Starship Captain is a wonderful thought, but it won't happen.
Dreams, you want me to strive toward a benevolent, altruistic, helpful career. What can I do? I want to help. I want to use my skill set toward the betterment of mankind.
How do I do that?
Stand up comedian? Is that an option?
Counselor? Is that too obvious?
Creative writing? Does it help people?
I need a bit more clarity. Dreams, can you show me a clearer path? My future isn't clouded by the dark side of the Force. Perhaps my path simply isn't illuminated by the light side yet.
-Daniel
Day 6 — A Stranger
Dear Stranger,
I don't know you. Your face isn't not familiar. You name is not known.
But did I make you smile? Did I light up your day? I laugh a lot, and laughter is a bit contagious, no? I like to have fun. I play with lightsabers and bolt out of elevators pretending to be a time traveler being chased by a Terminator.
I hope I made you happy with my antics. I hope I can get to know you, too. No need to remain strangers, eh?
-Daniel
Blog, I haven't written to you in a very, very long time. But hopefully, this new project, "30 Days, 30 Letters", will help me write more often. The basic premise is that I will write a letter each day for a month's time to various people. I started writing these letters a month ago, but could never finish the first letter. There were so many people to include, and I remembered more and more as I wrote. So, I plan to try and limit myself as best I can.
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Dear Best Friends,
Oh, the best friend question. "Daniel, who is your best friend?" That's a tricky question, Everyday Citizen. Most people grow up with someone as their best friend, being neighbors, classmates, family friends, etc. But being a military brat, I've moved around a bit. With each move, came new friends. And sometimes those friends moved away while I stayed put. So, in the end, I've had several people I consider best friends, no greater or lesser in standing than the others. Best friends of mine at different times in my life, at different locations. So I'll write a letter to everyone, if I can.
To you, Best Friends, I say thanks. I sound formal and a tad detached, but cut me a break, I'm writing to dozens of people at once.
Best Friends, know that I value you. You've been there, via IM, MySpace, Facebook, phone call, video chat, and in person. You've listened to me, guided me, helped me become who I am. Life without close friends is hardly interesting, and thanks to you, I've had an interesting life.
For some of you, we don't chat very often. Random messages online, the text or phone call. And others, it seems like I bother you everyday. If I could, I'd see all of you each day. Be it for video games, a hug, random movies and shows, or just talking. Life hasn't worked out like that, and I hope you're in my thoughts as often as you're in mine.
I'm here, in cyberspace, if you ever need anything.
-Daniel
Day 2 — Your Crush
I Googled quotes about crushes.
"Sometimes I wish I could scream at you, and show you just what it is that you do to me."
-Daniel
Day 3 — Your Parents
I wrote about my parents in my birthday blog. Here is that clip, with some edits and an addition.
Mom and Dad, you have spoiled me. But let me be quick to say that I'm not complaining. I've always had ample food, games, and random stuff I probably begged for and said "I'll love you forever if you get this [trivial item] right now!" TV, movies, and books were plentiful. You also gave me plenty of love and attention. Reading to me at night, making sure I had the tools I needed to learn, encouraging me to be myself and supporting me when I wanted to be an archeologist one year, then an aerospace engineer the next year. You provided a humorous environment to grow and thrive in, and a life full of travel and culture. You protected me from some of life's unsavory aspects, but granted me access to everything when I was ready. My values and morals, my attitude toward life, and my personality stem from you. I am my own person with my own ideas and opinions, but I follow your example more often than not. I can thank you everyday for the rest of my life and it wouldn't be adequate enough for what they've done for me. Braces, good schools, my own computer, telescope, vehicle, game consoles, TVs, stereos, CDs galore, DVDs, phones, Beanie Babies, McDonald's toys, furniture, decorations, vacations and trips to fantastic locations, and so many other random stuff that I'm not aware of, forgotten, or simply too numerous to list without delaying the point. The thing I can do for you is to live my life. To go into the world and be myself. I'll stumble, fail, but I'll learn and continue to grow.
And grandchildren. I'm sure you eventually want some grandchildren, right?
-Daniel
Day 4 — Your Sibling
Dear Linda,
I have no idea if you read this blog, or are even aware of its existence, but that is beside the point. The point that I aim to make is that you are my sister, and you are awesome.
Yes, I've totally been an older sibling to you. Poked fun, bossed you around, gotten upset and started pointless arguments. But you have to admit, we've had far more good times than bad. TV shows we watched together, our crazy inside jokes, common interests and wonderful differences.
We're older now, and we both know you've got this vast potential ahead of you. You've got this intellect that I'm jealous of at times. And an artistic eye that still eludes me. You've got several successes to your name and you haven't even graduated yet. You've got a plan, a goal, a dream. You're set to go.
But with all this, be aware that I'm still older. It doesn't make me better, but it makes me a tad wiser. So please, listen to me when I try to give you advice (and the same goes for when mom and dad do the same). You know this to be true, but I don't think you actually believe it at times. Don't nod your head and say "I know, I know." That doesn't help you. Listen and try to learn.
It sounds like I'm lecturing, but when it comes to you, I only wish you'd listen at times. College is different. The academics are going to be more difficult, but that's only half of the experience. And I don't want you to fail at college when you could have simply listened to us when it comes to everything else.
Linda, you're an excellent sister. Lighten up a bit when the family pokes fun, listen when people try to help, and most of all, don't be different for the sake of being different; just be yourself.
-Daniel
Day 5 — Your Dreams
Dear Dreams,
You are varied. You are changing. You are a tad crazy at times.
Jedi Starship Captain is a wonderful thought, but it won't happen.
Dreams, you want me to strive toward a benevolent, altruistic, helpful career. What can I do? I want to help. I want to use my skill set toward the betterment of mankind.
How do I do that?
Stand up comedian? Is that an option?
Counselor? Is that too obvious?
Creative writing? Does it help people?
I need a bit more clarity. Dreams, can you show me a clearer path? My future isn't clouded by the dark side of the Force. Perhaps my path simply isn't illuminated by the light side yet.
-Daniel
Day 6 — A Stranger
Dear Stranger,
I don't know you. Your face isn't not familiar. You name is not known.
But did I make you smile? Did I light up your day? I laugh a lot, and laughter is a bit contagious, no? I like to have fun. I play with lightsabers and bolt out of elevators pretending to be a time traveler being chased by a Terminator.
I hope I made you happy with my antics. I hope I can get to know you, too. No need to remain strangers, eh?
-Daniel
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