Dear Blog,
You'll be interested to know that my attempts at vlogging have been less than fruitful. I've tried, recorded plenty of time of myself talking, but I am not able to focus on the task of creating a single idea and running with it, from filming to editing.
Now that I think about it, I lack focus in most of everything that I do. I rarely clean my room without randomly doing other tasks. I even jet away from writing this entry to search for other items as they come to mind. I wish I could say that I have ADD, but alas, I'm sure I don't.
I tried writing, but I'm so distracted by my mind. "I need to clean my sick" to "retape my floor decorations" to "homework" to whatever else. My brain fires off so many different ideas and I can't seem to stick to one for too long. I recall previous thoughts and conversations at seemingly random points in my day and just go with it.
For instance, between this paragraph and the previous one, I've read another article talking about HelpNathanBuyFirefly.com, Facebook chatted with a friend, washed my face, browsed the App Store on my iPhone, and checked a few things out on my laptop. I need to clean up my room and see about rearranging my furniture.
Blah. It's hard to concentrate (as of late, for sure). I'm not motivated to complete anything. It's even hard to just play video games. And the time steadily moves forward and no progress is made on any front. Or almost worse, a bit of progress is made of multiple fronts. I need to be researching images for my next floor theme (Pokemon?), reading Mark Twain and science fiction and fantasy stories, planning more jam sessions for Woods 5 (plus other RA stuffs), PSP, and other stuff. Heck, I'm losing focus on a blog all about me. What chance does anything else have?
I have the time, just not the drive. I blame the rainy weather today.
Until next time!
-Daniel Golden
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Hobby
Dear Blog,
Despite what you may think, Blog, I do not have a hobby. It seems that way. I haven't written anything substantial in quite a while, and you think I may have abandoned you to the far reaches of my mind. But it's not the case. My life has been a bit of a whirlwind of events. But I felt that it wasn't in your best interests to tell you, Blog. You're but a child. A recent creation of mine. And fragile. So here's but a brief summary of events and a new topic of discussion.
Victoria and I broke up right before finals week. Blog, the days and weeks after the break up were hard. I questioned myself on a variety of levels. But ultimately, I needed that break from her. It was not a healthy relationship. I'm not going to bash her (but I'm quite justified if I did wanted to). I still need a little more time to heal. She's got another guy now, and if she's truly happy, I'm glad for her.
Dad had a heart attack over the Christmas break, a couple of days before Christmas Day. He's fine now, don't worry. But the emotional aftermath was a bit much. The thought of losing my hero was more than I could bear, so I essentially refused to acknowledge that possibility was even an option. He's eating healthier now, and slowly changes some of his bad habits. He seems so much healthy now. Next up for him is his hip surgery. After that, he'll be better than ever with his stronger heart and awesome joint mobility.
Being a Resident Assistant is a tad stressful, as it always is. Aleigha, the Hall Director of Woods House, got an amazing job elsewhere and left MSU to pursue that opportunity. This semester started off without her here and Ryan from Scholar's House filling her her role as Hall Director. Ryan is pretty awesome, but after creating a good bond with Aleigha, it's been a bit jarring to incorporate a new leader. Plus my resident situation was interesting, with people coming and going for the first few weeks of the semester.
In the realm of romance, I haven't had the greatest luck either. Had to deny a friend a possible relationship with me, went on one date with a girl and she didn't feel the same as I did about her, and became quite close to another girl, which yielded interesting information throughout our discussions and resulted in another lost chance at something romantically lasting. The first girl and I are still friends, the second girl and I seems to get along just fine, and the third girl and I are bound to be best friends, which makes me excited.
On the note of friendship, these past couple of months have lead to some interesting news. Sarah and I have started chatting again. This makes me incredibly happy. I hope that she and I are able to resume our awesome friendship after the extended pause we had.
I've gotten closer to many members of Woods House staff, as well. Long talks, new insight, and just spending time together (in the face of the merging of Woods and Scholar's House) have really made us strong as a unit. I would even go as far to say that we might be the closest staff of all MSU residence halls.
In particular to staff friendships, Ashleigh and I have strengthened our friendship to limits I would have never thought possible. This makes me ecstatic, too. She's become very protective of me and I of her. I truly hope she and I are able to work on campus over the summer as it would make for an excellent time.
It almost goes without saying that my friendship with Nikki has gotten stronger, too. We had a bit of a rocky patch, but getting through that, she and I have a closer connection than before. I feel very safe when it comes to Nikki. She's not the average girl and that's a definite bonus for her.
Great friends are like diamonds. I seem to have found a diamond mine here at MSU.
The night goes on, so I will wrap up this blog with a bit of news. I feel like I have too much free time on my hands now that I am single. With this free time, I don't know what to do. So I will try to take up a hobby. This hobby, inspired by Nikki, is to vlog. Now I know, Blog, that you might be jealous. But these vlogs probably won't be as personal as I am to you. I don't know what to do, how to go about starting, or even if I'm good at it. But everyone has to start from the beginning at some time, no? Wish me luck, though, Blog. I need a bit of encouragement.
Until next time,
Daniel Golden
Despite what you may think, Blog, I do not have a hobby. It seems that way. I haven't written anything substantial in quite a while, and you think I may have abandoned you to the far reaches of my mind. But it's not the case. My life has been a bit of a whirlwind of events. But I felt that it wasn't in your best interests to tell you, Blog. You're but a child. A recent creation of mine. And fragile. So here's but a brief summary of events and a new topic of discussion.
Victoria and I broke up right before finals week. Blog, the days and weeks after the break up were hard. I questioned myself on a variety of levels. But ultimately, I needed that break from her. It was not a healthy relationship. I'm not going to bash her (but I'm quite justified if I did wanted to). I still need a little more time to heal. She's got another guy now, and if she's truly happy, I'm glad for her.
Dad had a heart attack over the Christmas break, a couple of days before Christmas Day. He's fine now, don't worry. But the emotional aftermath was a bit much. The thought of losing my hero was more than I could bear, so I essentially refused to acknowledge that possibility was even an option. He's eating healthier now, and slowly changes some of his bad habits. He seems so much healthy now. Next up for him is his hip surgery. After that, he'll be better than ever with his stronger heart and awesome joint mobility.
Being a Resident Assistant is a tad stressful, as it always is. Aleigha, the Hall Director of Woods House, got an amazing job elsewhere and left MSU to pursue that opportunity. This semester started off without her here and Ryan from Scholar's House filling her her role as Hall Director. Ryan is pretty awesome, but after creating a good bond with Aleigha, it's been a bit jarring to incorporate a new leader. Plus my resident situation was interesting, with people coming and going for the first few weeks of the semester.
In the realm of romance, I haven't had the greatest luck either. Had to deny a friend a possible relationship with me, went on one date with a girl and she didn't feel the same as I did about her, and became quite close to another girl, which yielded interesting information throughout our discussions and resulted in another lost chance at something romantically lasting. The first girl and I are still friends, the second girl and I seems to get along just fine, and the third girl and I are bound to be best friends, which makes me excited.
On the note of friendship, these past couple of months have lead to some interesting news. Sarah and I have started chatting again. This makes me incredibly happy. I hope that she and I are able to resume our awesome friendship after the extended pause we had.
I've gotten closer to many members of Woods House staff, as well. Long talks, new insight, and just spending time together (in the face of the merging of Woods and Scholar's House) have really made us strong as a unit. I would even go as far to say that we might be the closest staff of all MSU residence halls.
In particular to staff friendships, Ashleigh and I have strengthened our friendship to limits I would have never thought possible. This makes me ecstatic, too. She's become very protective of me and I of her. I truly hope she and I are able to work on campus over the summer as it would make for an excellent time.
It almost goes without saying that my friendship with Nikki has gotten stronger, too. We had a bit of a rocky patch, but getting through that, she and I have a closer connection than before. I feel very safe when it comes to Nikki. She's not the average girl and that's a definite bonus for her.
Great friends are like diamonds. I seem to have found a diamond mine here at MSU.
The night goes on, so I will wrap up this blog with a bit of news. I feel like I have too much free time on my hands now that I am single. With this free time, I don't know what to do. So I will try to take up a hobby. This hobby, inspired by Nikki, is to vlog. Now I know, Blog, that you might be jealous. But these vlogs probably won't be as personal as I am to you. I don't know what to do, how to go about starting, or even if I'm good at it. But everyone has to start from the beginning at some time, no? Wish me luck, though, Blog. I need a bit of encouragement.
Until next time,
Daniel Golden
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