Changes

Dear Blog,

It has been a very long time since I've visited you. So long, in fact, that you've changed! You've got a new format for me to work with, and a lot of interesting improvements (let's see what I can do!). I have to say that this comes as little surprise, because Netflix has changed its business model (and made a new company for DVDs called Qwikster), George Lucas has changed Star Wars (who knew there was more to do?), and Facebook has been recently revamped (no complaints on that).

"I have altered the movies. Pray I don't alter them further."

And you know what? I've changed, too. In a positive way, no less. I'll admit, I still have times of self doubt. I still think down on myself. Every now and again I don't like what I see in the mirror. But overall, life is looking up. The shadows of the past no longer lurk in the corners of my mind. In a sense, I lit a new flame to shine on my heart. And with this enlightened soul, I've made progress in a few areas of my life.

First, school has been reviewed in my mind. I have a new approach and I'm enjoying it more. I feel like I'm actually able to move forward in a career and be successful. I have a plan and will start working on it as soon as I can. Things will come together if I keep a steady pace.

Second, work has been very interesting. Throughout training, the stress of preparation was manageable. Until the work I had to do increased as the days went on. My role as returner was utilized more than I thought was needed. And I even went above and beyond what was required of me, only to be told that it wasn't good enough. Things have settled down though, and everyone has started to find their place in the framework of the ResLife job. My bosses are more confident now, and my fellows new RAs are able to stand on their own.

Not Ra, Resident Assistant

Third, my personal life has been improved. I've come to a resolution, to a closure, and I can start again within the realm of one troubling relationship. And in another, I feel as though I've found a good balance among many factors. And new friendships abound with my RA colleagues in Woods House. It's been lovely! I even wrote them all a quick poem based off the floor themes on the building. Granted, not every relationship has had the greatest time these past few months. Sometimes the emotions ran deep and strong to the point of heartache. I wrote to you in the hardest time of despair. I never sent off the message. But looking back on what has happened, I hope only the best is yet to come out of it all.

Being an RA in Woods House for a second year has proven (so far) to be a fantastic decision. Last year was great, and this year has the potential to be better for me. How? Well, in a nutshell, I'm much more active within the group. I've almost taken on the job the job Nikki did. A sort of mother to the group. Father? Eh, parental unit. I've provided medicine when the staff was sick, I've written a poem to wish them luck with their new student leader roles, I've bought muffins, draw poorly illustrated whiteboard stories, personalized notes, and provided resources when I could. I thrive on that feeling of helping others. It's not pure altruism, but that's okay.

I do want to write more often, Blog, I really do. I hope this entry really gets me back into the habit. Maybe I should find another 30 Days thing to do. Or I'll just focus on what I'm feeling. Who knows what that might lead to?

It says: "I've learned to express my anger through my writing instead."

Until next time!
-Daniel Golden